Jan 2, 2012, 12:04 am
To my future husband
Dear,
I write this letter to you to show you how hopelessly romantic I am. (*wink2) I want you to know what Love means to me, so as to assure you that I’ll remain faithful as a wife. This is embarrassing, but you have to know that I’m writing this out of a very deep heartbreak. It’s my tragic first love. It had once been magical, but I hope my moving on would be as magical as the way I first fell in love. You should thank him my dear for if not for his disappearing, I would not have been stronger and smarter to wait for your coming.
I’m also glad that he made my life really colorful. He hadn’t been mine but at least he had made me feel hopeful and inspired. I’ll always look back to those times when he had made me feel blessed and cherished each day I wake up and before I sleep at night. I have loved him despite the pain of waiting and assuming that things will turn out all right. Because of him, I’ve learned quite a few lessons on love, and have grown quite mature for it. I should apologize if I’ll refer to him a few times in this letter. I guess you’ll have no problem with that knowing the fact that I’m officially and eternally yours.
My description is worth three words: choice, sacrifice, and eternity.
Love is a choice and it is this manner of choosing that made love exciting for the blessing of opportunities, growth and adventure. It is through this choice that we disregard our differences and deficiencies. For his case, I loved him despite of his manning up issues. I loved him and accepted the fact that he’s been seeing another lucky girl. I loved him despite of the pain that I had self-inflicted to make me realize I’ve truly loved. It is only through this experience of deepest sadness and deepest happiness that we can truly call it love. In my case as of now, without him and in solitary, I still choose to love him and accept the fact that he has totally (but I hope not) erased our memories.
Love is sacrifice. It is that willingness to give a part of yourself for the person you love. You invest emotions, time, money, and your future for that person. Love entails risks. But then it should also not just plain painful sacrifice. It should entail your own enrichment and growth. When two people fall in love, you grow together, mature together, and make your life more beautiful together. It is also through this sacrifice that you accept reality. Despite all the distance and absence, I swallowed the fact that he can never be mine and still continue to love. I accepted that the love will only be reciprocated by another love, and it is through this hoping that I have waited for you to totally heal me. Unfair and as painful as it is, I appreciated the premonition that one day, if ever our paths will meet again, I’ll be seeing him happy and satisfied. And surely, when that day comes, I will be clinging to your arms, feeling luckier and happily smiling for the prize I have long waited for.
Love is eternal. You just don’t wake up feeling in love and sleep the next day to forget about it. You choose to love everyday and it is only through the meeting of a better man, YOU, that the love is dimmed for the first and made even greater for the latter. We don’t cease to love as feelings never die that easily. From time to time, we remember and feel glad about those times that we have met amazing persons who changed our life, made us smarter, stronger, and more mature. We can do nothing but be thankful for it happened at one time when we’ve never expected that somebody would mean the world to you. It doesn’t always happen and it is this mystery and infrequency that makes love a truly wonderful experience. It enriches the body and soul with good thoughts, nice words, and compassionate actions. It enables us to appreciate our surroundings and love others more through the love that is reciprocated by that special someone. Luckily, God gave me you who truly made me feel contented and at the same time empowered to love others the same way as you do.
It is through this feeling that I’m giving my faith to you as your wife. I can’t give you all my trust dear since it can always be broken. But faith is stronger and more important than trust for it strengthens not only the commitment in marriage but us as partners, as husband and wife. It is my choice to give my hand to you and commit myself to be with you in all our trials, to make sacrifices at the same time enrich our life together, to be your best friend, to love you, serve you, and be with you forever. I’ll always thank God for giving me such a wonderful blessing. True enough as they say, good things come to those who wait. I love you.
Love lots,
Just your wife : )
